Life After California...

The last 6 days have been some of the best, worst, and craziest days of my life. I came back to Texas on Sunday afternoon/evening and I have to say that Sunday was one of the hardest days of my life. I've struggled alot over the last several weeks with wanting and not wanting to come home, and Sunday all of those feelings hit me like a brick. I wanted to come home and see my family and friends, but at the same time, I didn't want to leave all that I had known for 10 weeks behind. I got to go to church on Sunday because my flight didn't leave until the afternoon, and while I'm glad I did, I think it made leaving that much harder. As I left 2nd service a little early to make it to the airport on time, I felt like I was leaving a piece of my heart behind. Dave met me outside the auditorium and asked if I was ok and I could only say "no" because I wasn't. I held it together pretty well on the way to the airport and when Dave dropped me off, but when I got on the plane, I couldn't do it anymore. Kara and I had made a CD earlier in the week of songs that kinda defined our summer in California and as I listened to those songs as we flew over Fresno/Clovis, I lost it. The lady that was sitting next to me probably thought I was a basketcase, but I am okay with that. I'm not normally a real emotional person in public, but I couldn't really help it. I loved Clovis and California and the people there and it hurt in my heart that I didn't know when I would be back to see those people and that place that had impacted my life over the course of a summer. It was a highly emotional time.

This week I've been busy with seeing family and getting ready to come back to Waco. It's been good to be surrounded by people and to be busy because I haven't had a chance to think about the fact that I'm back in the real world and not in California anymore, but at the same time, it's been kinda challenging. I've realized that I'm going to have to work hard not to revert back to Kimberly pre-California, that I'm going to have constantly pursue my relationship with God to stay solid in the decisions that I made this summer.

I ask that you guys (whoever is still reading this thing) to continue to pray for me. I'm really struggling with wanting to be here (school/Waco/Texas in general) when my heart just isn't in it. Some of my relationships here are suffering because of that because I just can't put into words what is going on in my heart. As I drove back to Waco yesterday I prayed for contentment, to be happy where God has me now-at Baylor, because I know that I have to finish school and I know that I have to live here at least until May.

Thanks guys! I appreciate it! I'll try to update more so stay tuned...
Kimberly